Not Alone

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When my wife and best friend passed in September, I was thrust into a world which she had spent the entirety of her illness trying to prepare me for.  I was blessed by her efforts, and while at times lonely – I am not alone.  She fostered great friendships and support systems for me.

Now with Covid 19, and a lock down owing to my own underlying health concerns, I am blessed by the ability to remain in the home we built together.  The decorations, furnishings, and just the memories of her are comforting.

This time of self-isolation is also bringing me closer to “her world” – the hours she would have spent each day alone in the house awaiting my daily return from work.  She filled those with music, art, and reading.  Through her recordings, coluoring books, and library – these too I can share.

Today’s prompt from Mindlovemisery’s Menagerie is to compose a somonka poem, which is a Japanese form.  It is two tankas written as two love letters to each other (one tanka per love letter).  In my poem below I have tried to capture my feelings, and what I believe to be Dianne’s response.

When you departed
My isolation began
My life without you
Now necessity -locked in
Your presence anew I feel

You’ve not been alone
I prepared you for this day
Memories abide
My mark is upon our home
Each place where we shared our lives



7 thoughts on “Not Alone

  1. Excellent! So hard to write, as I know. It has been five years since my wife’s death from ovarian cancer and still it is difficult at times to write of that “isolated” feeling that comes afterward.

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